November 28, 2012

The Pressure of Being a Blogger

**Warning... wordy post ahead**

From the day my mom let me redo my bedroom from burgundy victorian to modern red on a $200 budget I knew I loved design.  My bedroom, as my mom designed it was very progressive... I had wallpaper and a chair rail.  The wallpaper was peach and blue, but the fabric she used was a contrasting burgundy and green tapestry.  A high mix of patterns for back then!

When I wanted to change the colors, design style, and space plan my mom was very open and gave me all decision making power.  I chose beige, black and red... colors that I have stuck with for the rest of my life!  I chose to splatter paint my walls tan, picked out a buffalo tan and white check duvet cover, and accented with a black chair rail, black rod iron furniture and a big red bean bag chair.

A few years later Trading Spaces became a huge hit on TLC.  It was the first show that showcased design in general and also design on a budget.  $1000 and 2 days... I was hooked!

Flash forward 6 years later and I was working as an Interior Designer.  HGTV had become popular and brought home design and DIYing into the main stream.  I worked for clients with large budgets and the only opinion that I had to think about was my clients and my boss.  A few years later, on the quest to start my own business and bring affordable design to everyone I discovered design blogs.  I saw a world of beautiful pictures and inspiring projects and fell in love.  I loved the idea of sharing projects and tutorials to like minded people and also to others that had no idea, but if they had a good tutorial anything seemed possible.

Over the last 2 years of writing this little blog, I have loved sharing my ideas and tutorials and have never really thought twice about making it perfect or what the end picture was going to look like.  I created projects and posted things because I wanted to, not because that is what was current in the blogging/interior design world.  Until today.  As I was decorating for Christmas I suddenly found myself thinking about how is this going to look on my blog, who will pin this idea, does this look modern enough... etc.  And as my mind went crazy with these thoughts I became paralyzed in my decorating!!

I never imaged what I would post on my blog would dictate how I decorated my house!  It was seriously making my head hurt!

There is so much to be said for the blogging community!  I am so fortunate to be a part of this design world and so happy I have made so many great friends!

Blue tape will be replaced with something else... soon!
Lately the pressure of having to write a blog daily has felt a little too much like a job I don't want to go to.  I have a laundry list of projects to complete in my house and one would think that having a daily design blog would be all the motivation in the world.  I have been feeling the opposite.  I have had fabric to make pillows for my new couch for the last 2 months and not a single stitch has been made.  I have cans of spray paint ready to go to transform all of the small things to match my new decor but have not wanted to spray paint!!

Blogging has been a great outlet for me and I believe in all that I post and write.  I think it just hit me today that I need to complete my projects and write daily {or whenever I feel like it} for me.. not for anyone else!  I have great readers and loads of encouragement and support, but in the end if I don't love doing this than there is no point.  

Ok.. enough said.  I love writing this blog and I love sharing my projects, home and ideas with everyone!  I think as most of life, things go in cycles.  Hopefully I am cycling out of my "crazy thinking too much about how it will look on my blog" phase and after posting this can clear my head and get back to design business!


Lisa @ Shine Your Light said...

You have a lot on your plate right now with the move and working on your house and now the Christmas season. Maybe taking a little break from blogging will help. Just do your own thing - you are so creative and talented!

Ange said...

This is your blog so the beauty of that is you decide when you want to blog or not blog and even what you are going to blog about. I understand what you're saying, I think we all deal with thoughts like that at one time or another. Take a break, wait until you want to cover your pillows and spray paint. We are here for you, no pressure! :) Enjoy your family, your new home and whatever else you want to do with your free time! Hugs friend!

Elizabeth @ The Little Black Door said...

I can totally appreciate how you feel. And if you aren't wanting to spray paint girlfriend, then something is bugging you! :) You've had more than a full plate over the past few months, I'm sure that letting it all off your chest will help. And if a break is needed to recharge, we will all be here when you get back. :) xo

My Crafty Home Life said...

Take a break, have a cocktail, and get out of the house...maybe not in that order. Blogland is not going anywhere.

Rea T said...

Hi there Tiffany!

This is a very honest post as it is already and I bet after writing this one, you felt a little better....I have to agree with you that if you don't love doing this then there is no point to it...BUT sometimes in almost anything and everything that we do, we need to have a "BREAK" maybe slow down during this christmas season because this is the time that we're supposed to spend it with our family :)
we will still read each others posts but at the end of the day it's our family that will be there no matter what...

so go for whatever makes your heart smile :)


Patty Hibble said...

I love your blog and have the utmost respect for you and your style. But burned-out isn't good if you're a teacher, a preacher, a doctor, a mommy, a blogger or anyone! Do you HAVE to blog EVERY DAY? EVERY WEEK? EVER???

Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and your family. But, please don't hang up forever! You're too awesome not to share with us...even if on occasion! You are appreciated-valued-loved-bookmarked-pinned-inspiring-irreplaceable. You get my drift! xoxo

Calypso In The Country said...

Your blog is beautiful. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. I find I am much happier blogging when I go by my own schedule and not feel pressured to come up with something. Now, go make yourself a cup of tea and relax!

Cassie @ Primitive & Proper said...

i went through this a couple months ago and decided then and there that i needed to do my blogging for me and me alone... it's an outlet, not a source of pressure! at least it should be. i stopped linking to parties for the most part, and stopped having my friday guest series, and now i am totally loving it because it's mine and it's for me again.

Lisa @ Trapped In North Jersey said...

I have felt much the same way for the past year, and blogging has been difficult. Don't put too much pressure on yourself. I enjoy your blog, so just write about whatever you want.

Diane Haynie said...

I enjoy your blog and hope you continue to write it. so much has been written lately by bloggers who almost blame their readers for the time they spend writing their blog. Blogging is not only for pleasure but is also a great business strategy that is continuing to be a necessity into todays social media mad world. Maybe viewing it as a way to increase your design business visibility it will seem like less of a chore. Good luck with your decision

Decor & Harmony said...

Tiffany you are a sweet and generous soul take time to replenish and relax. If it's not bringing you joy then its time to a breather...we will be here thanks for sharing :) Now go have that glass of wine.

Mrs. Handyverger said...

If you're not feeling it so much that you don't want to spray paint things, Tiffany, it's definitely time to step back and blog for YOU, not for us. :) I have no doubt that whatever you decide to post - or not post - I'll be delighted to read it! I don't read your blog for pinning, or for things to look modern. I read it because you're a real person, and you're fun to read! <3

Hang in there!

Tanja @ Postmodern Hostess said...

I know I'm late to this party, but I'm catching up! I can relate to so much in this post, and I think you're right to do it for YOU, and to give yourself permission to step back once in a while. I just took a bigger blogging break than I intended, and found it really refreshing to have my own ideas again, not just ideas that would look great on the blog, or ideas inspired by other people's blogs.

(Also, I cracked up that you put a wordy post warning on this. :-) Will you teach me to be more concise, please? I think my short posts are still longer than this!)